I grew up among singing people. The first church I remember attending was in West Monroe, LA. Alton Howard was one of the elders there. He’s the man responsible for the hymnal that had 728b in it.
That’s an inside joke for all the folks who grew up in my heritage: the non-instrumental Churches of Christ.
He was a singing man. He led singing at church most Sundays (back then we didn’t call it “leading worship”). He wrote new songs and rearranged old ones with people like Peggy West and Ben Cumnock and Pam Stephenson (she was my piano teacher once upon a time), and he knew how to get a church full of working-class folks on their feet singing with full voices. I think it’s largely because of Alton Howard that I love to sing and that some of my favorite songs are great, old hymns of the church. I’m honored to have my next book published by a company that still bears his name, Howard Publishing (which is now an imprint of Simon & Schuster).
When we moved to California, we found another good-singing church. Glen Stice was the song-leading elder at this one. He’d led a traveling gospel quartet at one time, and he led a chorus that rehearsed every Sunday night before evening services. That was really smart on his part, because it ensured that the people who did come back for Sunday evening services would at least sing well. Some Sunday nights we’d do nothing but sing. And once a year we’d do a Top 10 hymn sing, taking votes for weeks leading up to the main event.
My father worked with church leaders throughout Southern California for a few years to host an event called The West Coast Soul-Winning Workshop on the campus of Cypress College. It was there, under a tent outside and in one of the two gymnasiums, that I remember hearing Keith Lancaster and his singing group Acapella. I remember Jerome Williams. I remember huge choirs from African-American churches in Los Angeles. Over the course of Memorial Day Weekend, it seems like we must have sung every song we knew…twice.
When I got into student ministry, the church I served liked to sing and liked to learn new songs. We were among the first to use a praise team — a small group of singers instead of one solo worship leader — and in those pre-PowerPoint days, we used an overhead projector to show the words on the wall. I led worship a lot back in those days — on Sundays, at youth rallies, church camp. I loved putting together an order of music that flowed from contemplating the holiness of God to recognizing the sinfulness of humans to celebrating the forgiveness found in Jesus. I just loved doing that.
I remember when my roommate, Ben Wall, first told me about this event he wanted to put on. It would be called “Day of Praise”, and it would be six-hours of singing. He brought in Ken Young and his worship team, Hallal. He rented out the Bren Events Center on the campus of UC-Irvine. We sang until our throats gave out, and then we sang a little bit more.
One of the great joys of the past year was being a KidStuf singer in California, getting back up in front of folks and leading them in song. The music put out by The reThink Group and Integrity’s “Shout Kids” line is really fun to sing. I hadn’t realized how much I missed singing until I started doing it again.
And yet….
After each of these times of singing — whether it was outside under the stars or in a hall with perfect acoustics — whether it was Sunday morning or Friday night — whether it was with acappella or with a full band or with tracks — when the music died down and my heart was filled to overflowing with emotion — I felt like something was missing.
I used to think something was wrong with me. Singing was supposed to bring joy, but it had a funny aftertaste in my mouth. I figured I was just insatiable, ungrateful, incapable of feeling fulfilled, chronically discontent.
I don’t think that way anymore. I’ve come to believe that this is not so much a flaw in my design as it is a designed flaw from the manufacturer. God knew what he was doing when he made us this way.
We experience such joy as a foretaste of glory divine. An appetizer meant to awaken an even deeper hunger. A preview of coming attractions. Something even bigger and better than any of our gatherings here on earth awaits us, and something deep inside knows this.